im soooo stressed.

seriously ak sgt stress....exam btol2 da dekat  but ak x study pape lg...assignment membukit n susah2 plk tu...tu lg la wat ak tnsion..terasa cam lecturer ni ta paham bahasa pulak..tolonglaa..exam 2 minggu  lg..tolongla tanda assignment ak tanpa byk cekadak..

semalam..mmg ak stress tahap maksimum la...smp ak menangis..siyes ak rase berat sgt beban kat bahu ak ni...boleh ke ak skor exam klu mcm nie...im crying soo much..n ak ader satu perangai buruk yg ta pnh2 ubah since skola menengah lg...ak stress. tendency ak nk naik hangin mmg tinggi smp bole hurt org sekeliling ak..then lepas ak kuar sume kemarahan ak..ak akan nangis..dats my habit..sebab..ak bole kuarkan sume yg trpendam dalam hati ak...ak x tau knp..why ak perlu involvekan org lain dalam problem ak..ak drag org dlm kemarahan ak...ak mnx maaf pasal tu...until yesterday..ble ak ditegur sbb perangai ak..yela im hurt people yg ak syg..ak trfikir.am i dat bad? ..sorry..maybe pas ni ak akan cube control..ak nk marah pun ak akan hilangkan diri..jerit sorang2..menangis sorang2..no one knows...but i dont know whether i can do that..im not dat strong..i need someone who support me..i dont want to tell my mom coz for sure i will cry infront her..n worstly..mama akan nangis same..dy x ske anak dia rase susah..siyes ak x tau..

teringat cter kat mktab ble rakan baik ak kat kelas dulu slalu jd mngsa kemarahan ak..tp dia sgt tau mmbezakan which one ak stress n which one ak btol2 marah...sbb ak slalu kantoi ngan dia sbblepas marah ak akan lari kat tangga hujung blok n nangis puas2..Thanx frenz even kte da lost contact..im appreciate it..n ak mnx maaf sbb ko jd sasaran aku..

im just hope im strong for this becoming 3 weeks..dah nk exam..tolongla beri ak kekuatan supaya ak supaya ak x menyusahkan org lain lagi..n dapat mnghadapi cbaran ni..InsyaAllah

ps: when im writing tis entri..im still crying since yesterday..n i hope it will be t last..people know im crying....

ape korang rase?

ape korang rase klu b4 tido karang brgaduh/bbrtengkar ngan somebody?

ape korang rase klu tdo..tetibe korang rase sedih sgt..?

ape korang rase klu bgn tido still ingat ape yg berlaku b4 krg tido?

ape korang rase bler da mngaku kesalahan korang..tp x dilayan?

ape korang rase korang wat prmintaan yg sgt penting bg diri korang..tp tiada jawapan?

ape korang rase klu korang cube sembunyikan diri korang dpn org yg krg syg?

ape korang rase ble korang pretend x lemah..tp deep inside ur heart..korang menangis?

ntahla..ak rase tatau nk lepas kat mane..so blog is one of my way...n soalan ni..reflect kat aku blk..
sabarlah hati..i know i will strong..:)

what do people said bout me..haha

haha..kat fb skunk ade mende best secret code ..n only u n people who u tell ur code know bout it..huhu..so lets check what they said bout me..

Shafiq Senpai

‎0999: benda plg penting ak ingat lagi ko pakai baju kurung ngan kasut sport, n x dlupakakan ko mmg garangs.. haha.. tp knangan kte mase brebut kfc time jamuan homeroom mmg best.. kalo jamuan mesti nak secret recipe kan .. ahaha.. i luv my homeroom.. n thanx sbb sudi jd homeroom ak..:]

Nur Nazrah Bibi

dear ms o999 ; i miss u 2 . HAHAH . rindu ms kite kt kiub dlu . gosipp smpai x igt dunia kn . tq sbb byk tlg ak dlu . ps: jasa anda amat sy hargai . ramai org ckp yg ko garang , 4 me , u not ! baek la jugak . tp ak lg baek kot . kn kn ? Hahah . Bln 5 jum meet , ak free :)

Arief Mirkhaél

‎0999: antara pompuan yg paling innocent masa form 1 dulu... haha... baek, peramah, ganas gak kdg2. tp aku suka borak ngan ko., siyesly. ko tak pnah gado ngan aku, n that's y aku suka kawan ngn ko. :)

Nabila Syahira

♥ 0999: haha lawyer-to-be, lama dah kenal ko. dr drjh 1. pastu kita dah lost contact. akhirnya kita jejak qasehh kembali. haha ko kt uitm shah alam kan? ble2 senang nk ajak aku kuar.. jom ah. happy new year!

fatan fauzan: 0999-apa mahu cakap,tahap ketegasan kau boleh lawan setiap polis polis di seluruh malaysia.aku pun boleh terkencing dalam seluar bila kau berdiri dan memaki seorang seorang yang berbuat onar.kau bakal peguam kan?ya,teruskan teruskan.mungkin kau ni bakal jadi kuin kontrol dol.hati hati,kang mati laki kau kena lanyak.haha.tak banyak nak cakap,cuma mengharapkan kau tak lupa aku.nice tak nice tak?haha,aku ketandusan idea.

Azzizatul Aiinani

‎0999:ni no james bond ni:P
papepun bdk ni tyme awl2 aku pindah skola dlu aku mmg geng ngan die
pastu kteorg jd mcm rengang skit hubungan kiteorg
time die dah nak masuk asrama bru aku mule rpat ngan die..
tyme tempoh mase yg pendek tula kteorg berkongsi cter suka n duke
yg aku sure die mmg open minded n baik..n die syg ayh die giler2.

Masthura Yahaya

from me to miss 0999; aha ^_^ jujurnye, ye awk ldp yg garang! mmg lyk jd lawyer. sy jrg berckap ngn awk. tak tau knp kan? hehehe. have a bright new year dear.

Fatimah Zulkifli Dear 0999, wlpn majority FIVERS ak knal time form 5..tp ko time form 4 ak dh knai..tp ak xpnah brani ckp ngn ko. mke ko grg. ak tkot. time tu ak slalu nmpk ko kt rollcall je la. xpnah nmpk ko senyum. asyik mke tension. tp bla form 5 kta jd jran dorm, best kwn ngn ko. ko baik. tgas. n bgus. ko mke pndai. ak tgk mke ko pn mmg mke org yg berjya, amin..ak n incik rabbit pooh syg ko..:p thnx ye.

Aishah Pattali

‎0999- alamak sorry tak perasan la kita selalu jumpa kat lobi hehe. rase mcm pernah nampak cuma tak tegur je kan ;) budak baik mawar. cehhh! lepas ni kalau jumpa kat lobi, boleh bukak kedai kopi. pencarian akan bermula naik sem ni hee

Cik Nad

to 0999, kte sumpah kamcing dlm klas! baik n buruk! kah3.. time f4, kte dok satu baris je.. bersama2 rakan baru kita yang sorang tu.. da lama da tak jmpe ko.. ops lpe.. kte gak sme2 berusaha menentang you-know-who.. kah3 rse cam nak jmpe ko then borak2 pasal dulu2 je.. ag satu, ko mmg selalu tolong ak!

Atikah Masjuni

dear 0999... first time aku tgok ko, aku ingat minah jepun mana la baru sampai maktab...(first impression) hehehehe... then, start mula kenal ko, dlm hati aku (waa...boleh tahan gak ye minah nie... ).... then kita satu organisasi.. takut gak aku tgok ko tegas oww... mmg ada ciri2 kepimpinan... thanks sbb sudi jadi my friend... miss u a lot... rindu kat muka ko yg garang tu...hehehe

Rose Syahirah

‎0999 - met her kt SAF ! hehe. kte maen bb same same kan. 1st time knl kte da sesat nk carik court bb. haha. penat gila kan. but skarank da jrg kn jmpe you. shes cool. ada sportsmenship! xD oh yea, ingt lgi jerit2 nama bf u kt mawar. hehehe. hope u dont mind i buat cmtu aritu xD

Armnee Noona

‎0999: ex-rumet aku yg sangat clumsy..haha...tapi sumpah babe kau sangat sweet and cantek...kalau lah bf kau wat hal ngn kau memang aku kerjakan dye...(asal ak mrepek ny..??) seorang yg sgt ske outdoor activities...nty klu ade lapang jowm g bumgee-jumping sama2...hahaha..:DD

Fizz Yusuf

‎0999 AMONGST OUR CLASSMATES,I ONLY SCARED OF U!!donno y mb it's bcoz of ur eyes kowt..ble usha muke gue!fuh!u r burning my soul!!but,seriously u has wake me up from dreaming & i thank god,god send the signals through u!!now i more serious n focus on study..perhaps,one day i can treat u a lunch or dner..semoge berjaya dlm stdy ye?amin

teehee..t ak update ag yaw..ramainye ckp ak garang x_X

this song

love this song ..:p

A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by
I'm hopin' just to be by your side
I'm turnin' the handle, it won't open
Don't make me wait 'cause right now I need your smile
Knock, knock

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

Little louder, little louder
Little louder knockin'
Little louder, little louder

A warm bath, a good laugh, an old song that you know by heart
I've tried it but they all leave me cold
So now I'm here waitin' to see you
My remedy for all that's been hurtin' me
Knock, knock

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

You seem to know the way
To turn my frown upside down
You always know what to say
To make me feel like everything's okay

Little louder, little louder
Little louder knockin'
Little louder, little louder
Little louder knockin'

Little louder, little louder
Little louder knockin'
Little louder, little louder

When life had locked me out I turned to you
And you open the door
And you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

When life had knocked me down I turned to you
And you open the door
And you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you
Nothin' works like you

When life had locked me out I turned to you
And you open the door
And you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

money..money..money

hmm..da lebih satu bulan aku kat UiTM Shah Alam ni..mcm2 kerenah yg ak tgk..biasela..msg2 rase diri da besar..kira baru dapat kebebasan la tu..setiap hari pergi kelas..macam2 gaya yg bole nmpak..ader yg ayu dan sopan..ader seksi terseksa..haha..kdg2 nk gelak jugak tgk ader yg bjalan dari kolej kediaman ke fakulti dgn berkasut tinggi sgala bagai..klu kolej dpn fak tape gak..ni jauh..mmg pecah perut r.. :p ..blom ag yg jd MSC.(minah saleh celup)..da kate rule x leh kaler rambut..makin karat jadinya..ntahla..

tp tu sume tade kena mngena pun ngan ak..yang sakitnya duk cnie ialah..high cost ofliving..sangatla tinggi..rase duit tu kuar cam air terjun mengalir je..deras gler..kejap2 duit buku..then nk fotostat ag..duit makan lg..kna lak classmate yg "kaya-kaya"..selalu sgt nk mkn kat luar..nk chill..dugaan2..nk je tny..krg i asyik chill ta reti nk study ke?..tp bknnye sedara mara kt yg nk ditegur..msg2 da besar..da pndai pk..even x kuar dr u ni pun duit cepat je abis..ape lg yg keluar berseronok..lg la...macam ape..at least nk kuar..minimum habis dkt RM 50..tu minimum..klu yg da ta pk mase depan..bpe byk abis..tension je...

mungkin bnda ni sume ader hikmahnya bagi aku..kat maktab dulu..duit tade la byk pakai sgt..sume duit yg dberi abah bole je g koop tiap2 ari..g kafe..outing x ingat dunia..sbbb..living cost kurang..makan still support kat ds..tp ble kat u..abis dekat RM 15 sehari..blom tmasuk duit bas n lain2..seminngu da brape..sebulan??..smp da x sanggup nk mnx parents..that's a lesson to me..macam mane nk manage duit..mcm mane nk ketepikan kehendak n utamakan keperluan..n plg pnting yaya yg satu masanya dulu sgt memilih bab2 makan ni..da x kisah sgt..da x terlalu demand..guess it is a right time to learn macam mana susahnya parents kita cari duit..so we need appreciate it..

n da x sabar nk tunggu duit elaun nih..ble la nk msk..sungguh la tak lalu nk mnx parents tiap2 minggu..

HOT NEWS PLKN KJM!!!

Selama ni..kem ak mmg pgg title kem terbaik r..kat perak..but satu hari ak blk umah..ak dapat msg dr dak kem ak..."weyh..baca utusan hari ni..name kem kt masuk"..ak pun balas r.."mane nk cr utusan kul 10 malam ni..citer ape??"..kwn ak pun text "ader budak terberanak kat kem kita"
mmg walaweyh..terkejut gile r..x tercakap ape..ak pun try la mngorek rahsia dr jurulatih2..tp ckg mahmud mmg sgt cekap mnyimpan rahsia..dy pretend tatau pape..ak g la srg2 nye wall jurulatih..sah!!
mmg masuk surat khabar..tapi tatau psl ape..then arini ak tbukak blog jurulatih ak..ader la brite ni..bdk kjm bsalin dlm toilet..orang asli..then dy mskkan bayi tu dlm baldi n msskan dlm loker dy..bayi tu da mninggal dunia.mengucap ak dgr..sgt kesian..n lg ak kesian..kat bdk2 sedorm pmpuan tu la..mzti ketakutan..ye r smp sorok mayat dlm loker..well..minda kt kan byk bnde "superstitious" ni..need to admit that..
kesian gak kat jurulatih yg da btungkus lumus jaga name baik kjm..tp akhirnya..mcm tu je..br seminggu bdk kump 3 msk..da jd mcm2..hmm..dunia2.

yaya n abahnye..

smalam..ak jadi bdk kecik jap..haha..p baring kat riba abah tme tgh tgk kat tv..lame la jgk x lepak mcm tu..heh..ak pun buat la mcm2 request

Aku: Abah..akak da nk msk u ni..

Abah: Hmm..nanti shopping barang2..list je

Aku: Abah..nk laptop baru..

Abah: ok

Aku: nk hp baru gak..canggih cket..

Abah: iphone??

Aku: x nk rr..x yah r mahal sgt..nk sony

Abah:yg mane??yg tbaru ke??

Aku: nanti akak tunjuk..

Abah:yelah..

Aku:Abah...nak broadband skali taw..yg tu mama pny..

Abah: ye..t abah buat..

Aku: Abah..nk jeans n baju baru..lame x shopping..hehe..duk asrama mls nk shopping..ntw org

len yg tlg pakai..

Abah : haha..ok nte g shopping..

Aku: Abah...nk beg baru jugak..

Abah: laa.abis tu beg2 yg penuh kat bilik tu sape nk pakai??

Aku: mane ader dah..sume adik rembat..kan beg akak cun2..hehe

Abah: yela..yela...

Aku: Abah..

Abah: ape lg?

Aku: Sneakers akak kan..da hancur kat maktab..sebab akak g rendam dlm clorox..susa sgt nk

ilang kotor dy..geram rr..pastu warne dy tanggal lak..

Abah:Haa??yg gi rendam dlm clorox tu nape??

Aku: erk..hehe..sorry..t nk bli sneakers gak tau..x suke r pakai sandal.

Abah: yela2.

Aku: Abah..baju kurung..yg kat mktab nk da teruk rr..n boring nk pki blk.

Abah:Mama!!kakak nak bj kurung..hmm nanti mama kate siap..

Aku: heh..ingat wat bj kurung tu mcm teh tarik ke..boleh siap2 camtu je.

Abah: dah tu..nk bj kurung ckp ngan mama..ader abah plk..

Aku:..hehe..saje je..

Abah: ni da mcm program asasi + program kopakkan duit abah je..

Aku: bukan slalu..

Abah: yela tu..ntah2 dlm purse tu bpe byk duit..abah bg duit bli brg..bknnye pulang baki..

Aku: erk..standard la tu..hohoho

Abah: Hmm..dah la..abah nk msk tido..g tido dlm bilik..

Aku:yela..yela..nk tdo la ni.nite abah..ntw g shopping tau.

Abah: tu je la yg dia ingat..

haha...best tol dpt abah yg memahami ni..tp cian gak..setiap kali nk g memane je..ak ketuk duit dy..sorry ye abah..ntw da besar.akak keje ngan abah..hehe..walau ari tu ckp x nk..ok abah??..sayang abah..n mama too..