seriously ak sgt stress....exam btol2 da dekat but ak x study pape lg...assignment membukit n susah2 plk tu...tu lg la wat ak tnsion..terasa cam lecturer ni ta paham bahasa pulak..tolonglaa..exam 2 minggu lg..tolongla tanda assignment ak tanpa byk cekadak..
semalam..mmg ak stress tahap maksimum la...smp ak menangis..siyes ak rase berat sgt beban kat bahu ak ni...boleh ke ak skor exam klu mcm nie...im crying soo much..n ak ader satu perangai buruk yg ta pnh2 ubah since skola menengah lg...ak stress. tendency ak nk naik hangin mmg tinggi smp bole hurt org sekeliling ak..then lepas ak kuar sume kemarahan ak..ak akan nangis..dats my habit..sebab..ak bole kuarkan sume yg trpendam dalam hati ak...ak x tau knp..why ak perlu involvekan org lain dalam problem ak..ak drag org dlm kemarahan ak...ak mnx maaf pasal tu...until yesterday..ble ak ditegur sbb perangai ak..yela im hurt people yg ak syg..ak trfikir.am i dat bad? ..sorry..maybe pas ni ak akan cube control..ak nk marah pun ak akan hilangkan diri..jerit sorang2..menangis sorang2..no one knows...but i dont know whether i can do that..im not dat strong..i need someone who support me..i dont want to tell my mom coz for sure i will cry infront her..n worstly..mama akan nangis same..dy x ske anak dia rase susah..siyes ak x tau..
teringat cter kat mktab ble rakan baik ak kat kelas dulu slalu jd mngsa kemarahan ak..tp dia sgt tau mmbezakan which one ak stress n which one ak btol2 marah...sbb ak slalu kantoi ngan dia sbblepas marah ak akan lari kat tangga hujung blok n nangis puas2..Thanx frenz even kte da lost contact..im appreciate it..n ak mnx maaf sbb ko jd sasaran aku..
im just hope im strong for this becoming 3 weeks..dah nk exam..tolongla beri ak kekuatan supaya ak supaya ak x menyusahkan org lain lagi..n dapat mnghadapi cbaran ni..InsyaAllah
ps: when im writing tis entri..im still crying since yesterday..n i hope it will be t last..people know im crying....
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